Feburary 2018

 12/30 Monday

My eye pop opne at a few times during the night but it was around 4 am I felt bed, said 4 sunnah and 4 fard and 3 vittar and then I left amessage on New tecahers group about whi is thursday halaaqa coordinator.

Then I turned on this alptop to finsih wrting about ysterday; sjournal.

its 5:14 am and I am feeling tired and am going to .

*** Below writeen on 12/31 at ***

I did not go to gym today though I had wanted to go but in

the end I was not disciplined enough.

At 4:50 after thajud, I left a message on New Green dot

teachers group not addressing  Nanzneen precsiley but a generic salaam and than asking who is Thursday coordinator and is Ayesha going to be Friday instructor. Nanzeen responded imemdiatley but a strange thing- she responded both here and the old teachers group. Maybe it was her way of saying don’t question me elsewhere but only at the small group. Whatever- I wanted to write where Aliya could see it but point taken Nazneen.

Then it was time for me to go to my blood work appoinemnt  and I left home at 7:20.

It was mislty and 55 degress, I enjoyed driving in this weather.

My turn came very early and the lady who took m blood asked

me how I feel about new year and I was quiet for some time and then I answered that ‘ I used to be more excited about this when I was younger’ Later I reflected on my answer and felt sad for myself.

I then took a walk in Walmart, it looed very spruced up and

nice and I enjoyed walking init- took my time looking at the maleup isle. Saw pionerr women stuff and wanted to message Miskee but then refrained myself from it.

Got Qamer;s hot sauce and then decided to go to Tarhet on awhim thinking it might be 90%. It was and I ahd a good time shopping. I did got bunch of 90% candles but then vaguely  decided to come back later. As it is, my cart ws bursting.

I did buy a lot of string lights and string stars and other decorations with girls graduation in view. I also bought bags of nice chololates with the same view- for the guests as well as two huge 18-ct each reeses and kit kat bars.

I came home at 9:45 am and asked Qamer to bring everything inside. Since Yab was already in the kitchen, I asked her to stack everything from out of the box and neatly in rows so I can see what I have bought.

Qamer had made tea an hour ago and I hd a cup but it ws very strong.

I texted Huma at 10 am and she responded back saying  ami is out of ICU and going to a regaulr room and that she will get PT for her weak legs. I posted this on sibling forum aas Iahd promised Asma.

At 10:15 I took pictures of my haul and loaded it on all things targer and even got a response from the page.

I ahd a feeling in my heart that I want to go back and get some more candles and do a more browse.

But kudos to me- my mind was on point.

I ahd qeema thawing and so I quickly made qeema Aloo while I

ironed a fresh shalwar kameeze and then qeema aloo was cooked. I als made a

plate for msye;f of the leftover pasta. A generous size plate.

Then I heade agini  to my Target and guess what all the candles were gone, the tins kind as well as the Threshold ones. I was a bit taken aback but I was not devasted or anything likethat. I did find a Mark n Spenser London cup in the regular isle and 80 cent candles called Mexican latte.

Then I headed to Target on 6 which had zero items exceptsome napkins an yellow color wavy candles.

And then a most upsetting thing happened while I was in Target

Mo called me at 12:33 and I piekd up the phoenw ith big smile on my face thinking she is calling me to thank me for the tree resses and it took  me a while to understand that she was actually crying.

She told me she had a devastating experience at the laser place and she was shaking and now she is in the car- cant stop crying. I tried to be as comforting as possible.

I came home and texted her at 1:10 that I am home and come talk to me. She did. She was cleary upset, said the woman was totally unsensitive, boasted about herself, and made reamkrs about Mo;s facil skin. I took Mo;s side and told her she need not go to her again.

I said duhar but felt kind of out of sorts.

I alid in bed and Qamer kindly made me omlette and termos of tea. I made a point to watch Kristen and Jorge 2024 cottage re-cap video  with Qamer while drinking tea. I am also reading ‘ The far country’ goal is to finish is before 1/1. It is dragging a bit now.

I suggested to Qamer that we should go look at the town square tree. He agreed.

First though- on my reminder, he made sure he got the jury duty money that ahs been sitting in his desk for some time. He also called the contractor guy and finally heard back from him.

Qamer has also been working  on the sink in the bathroom upstairs.

We said mughrib ad left right away.

It was a pleasant tripa dnwe enjoyed the tree and also took

a full length walk. I ahd an ulterior motive in mind- Ia sked Qamer to take me to our own target for a quick walk through and bless him he did. I noticed all the  Mark spenser tins were gone and lot sof nice premium candy was gone too.

I did find a lonely mexicam latte candle and a mark and soender red bus tin randomly as we were leaving.

I waited in the car while Qamer prayed isha at RCC. While dring there randomly the topic came up- about how Qamer did not get the promotion job he applied for but Jignasa did and I realized my poor husband was quite affected by it.

But on the other hand, this is life.

I finished the pasta that I ahd saved and went to my room.

Maleeha earlier cancleed our dinner yesterday at q’s deli and not she cnahged her blood work appointment from tomorrow to Friday.

I sympahtise with her but hhonesly she need to take a grip on herself.

Her diet is bad and she needs to be careful.

I was yawning by 8 pm and at 9 I took rx and went to bed and slppe right away.

Then I heade agini  to my Target and guess what all the candles were gone, the tins kind as well as the Threshold ones. I was a bit taken aback but I was not devasted or anything like that. I did find a Mark n Spenser London cup in the regular isle and 80 cent candles called Mexican latte.

Then I headed to Target on 6 which had zero items exceptsome napkins an yellow color wavy candles.

And then a most upsetting thing happened while I was in Target.

Mo called me at 12:33 and I piekd up the phoenw ith big smile on my face thinking she is calling me to thank me for the tree resses and

it took  me a while to understand that she was actually cryin She told me she had a devastating experience at the laser place and she was shaking and now she is in the car- cant stop crying. I tried to be as comforting as possible.

I ame home and texted her at 1:10 that I am home and come talk to me. She did. She was cleary upset, said the woman was totally unsensitive, boasted about herself, and made reamkrs about Mo;s facil skin. I took Mo;s side and told her she need not go to her again.

I said duhar but felt kind of out of sorts.

I alid in bed and Qamer kindly made me omlette and termos of tea. I made a point to watch Kristen and Jorge 2024 cottage re-cap video  with Qamer while drinking tea. I am also reading ‘ The far country’ goal is to finish is before 1/1. It is dragging a bit now.

I suggested to Qamer that we should go look at the town square tree. He agreed

First though- on my reminder, he made sure he got the jury duty money that ahs been sitting in his desk for some time. He also called th contractor guy and finally heard back from him.

Qamer has also been working  on the sink in the bathroom upstairs.

We said mughrib ad left right away.

It was a pleasant tripa dnwe enjoyed the tree and also took a full length walk. I ahd an ulterior motive in mind- Ia sked Qamer to take me to our own target for a quick walk through and bless him he did. I noticed all the  Mark spenser tins were gone and lot sof nice premium candy was gone too.

I did find a lonely mexicam latte candle and a mar and soender red bus tin randomly as we were leaving

I waited in the car while Qamer prayed isha at RCC.

While dring there randomly the topic came up- about how Qamer di not get the promotion job he applied for but Jignasa did and I realized my poor husband was quite affected by it. But on the other hand, this is life.

I finished the pasta that I ahd saved and went to my room.

Maleeha earlier cancleed our dinner yesterday at q’s deli and not she cnahged her blood work appointment from tomorrow to Friday.

I sympahtise with her but hhonesly she need to take a gri on herself.

Her diet is bad and she needs to be careful.

I was yawning by 8 pm and at 9 I took rx and went to bed and slppe right away.

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12/31/2024 Tuesday

I went to sleep at 9:30 after my 2 RX.

Got up at 2:30.

4 ½ hours of sleep.

Came out and started working on my espense journal.

The Internet connection is very bad, keeps on dropping

Time is 3:15. Lets go abcka nd write about 12/30 Monday.

Its 4:10 and it took me a full hour to write abut yesterday’s journal.

It's 11:46 am.

6 hrs ahve passed.

I have not slept.

Instaed I ahve been busy.

I threw away all the white flour and almond flour thats been sitting in the pantry and Yab came and threw away the 2 that were in the containers.

I threw away the flowers qamer has gotten for my birtday- the mixed ones were wilted to start with it ( he boght it on reduced price) and the msall roses with baby breath were not looking good eithwr. I did clipped one yellow rose and put it next to the red rose I ahd clipped from the graduation bunch.

I got bunch of small bags of 'saag; meat . and put them togther to thaw to amke tikkay . Qamer had shami kaboob and egg and will be eating qeema aloo for lunch. I think someone else ate qeema aloo yesterday as well, Perhaps Nayaab.

I amde qamer do a laod of sofa cover and bed sheets togther.

I slowly beagn to take the Targets tuff from the carpet in the lving room to my bathroom roo. I amade space for it.

I also put all the string  light and other decorative stuff I had bough for grauduation in a box. I put the candles separately.

I also wiped the ktichen counters and swept the floor. yes the calners are coming this Saturday in shaa Allah,s till the house need not be nasty.

I also remembered to send Salma a long voice message regarding her appointemnt this eevening, My poor freind.

I also called Huma at 10 but she did not pick up.

I amde sure to repond to Ghazala's post on old teacher's forum, jusy a polite response. 

I also spoke up for her in the Richmond shurah group saying pick her.

I paid Qamer a viist in his offcie, did a quick clean up with him, was surprsied to see that he finished the bathroom taps last night. Motivated him to please clean his office clsoet, took the new ribbons that I bught from Target to him.

I also claned up the the bottom shelf of my bathroom closet and picked up all the cleaning supplies. They are now awaiting being put somewhere else by qamer.

time is 12:21, waiting for adhan to be called then wi;l take shower, and pray duahr and really really hoping to read some quran as well. In shaa Allah.